I see darkness down the line

Krigistades hambaid vaatad sa mulle otsa, seletad mulle mingid teemat , üritan sind kuulata kuid su jutt jookseb mul ühest kõrvast sisse ja teisest välja. Näen sinus deemonit, üritan sulle otsa vaadata kuid ma ei suuda. Su nägu paneb mind nutma. Kardan sind tohutult ,kuid sa ei mõista.  

Näod moonduvad , para on peal. kõik on deemonid. Jooksen õue ,vaikus summutab heli. Panen silmad kinni,kuid peas käib ikka error. Kõik elab , hingab , lainetab.

Lähen tuppa , sead jooksevad ringi ,joovad.  karjun ” palun ärge jooge rohkem” , kuid sead naeravad ja joovad edasi. Aga nad on ju mu sõbrad. Sõbrad sead.

Teen suitsu , nii hea on . Sa räägid ikka mulle sellest , kuid ma ei suuda sind kuulata . Tahan sulle otsa vaadata ,sest ma armastan sind. kuid su silmis näen ma deemonit. kardan meeletult. 

” ei sa ei söö seda sitta rohkem”

“aga ma tahan”

“EI , palun”

Jookseme koju ,sest külm on . 

Hoiad mind oma käte vahel kuni ma uinun, kuid sa juba magad. 

üritan uinuda ,kuid peas käib ikka error. Miks see juba läbi ei saa?

Sa värised , tunnen seda, sul on külm , kuid meil on ju 100 tekki peal. 

Ma tahan sind aidata ,kuid ma ei oska.

Äratad mind oma suudlustega, sest sa armastad mind.

Armastad eks?

Kui sa türapea oleksid seisma jäänud , oleksid lõuga ka saanud.

Sa vastik ülbe miljonär 

Ma loodan ,et sa upud oma rahasse ja sul pole kunagi enam sõpru 

Picture yourself with a fisheye lens,with a boat on a river, with tangerine trees and marmalade skies, somebody calls you ,you answer quite slowly, the colors are vivid and you are loving every second of it. 

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green
Towering over your head

I was in the sky with diamonds

Peas kummitas “imaginary girl” -David lynch

ja “Strawberry fields”- Beatles

Sa kõnnid .. tegelikult su jalad kõnnivad , lihtsalt oma suunas  ,sa tunned ,et sa suudaksid kõike teha. 

Energia on meeletu , hea tuju ja kõik on nii ilus.

Sa vaatad taevasse ja näed neid pilvi liikumas , nagu maailm oleks peatunud ja vaikus kahiseb su kõrvus, sa tahad ,et see kestaks igavesti …

Living my life ,I didn´t even know you were famous ,

rockin´stages in LA , Tokio and Las Vegas,

I remember when you kissed me,

told I was the one, that you never forget my amazingly beautiful brown eyes and my smile and stuff,

that you missed me , loved me and wanted me back,

but I didn´t care, I didn´t  even read you´re letters and texts ,

all those endless nights when we were together,

we talked how we´re gonna go to Japan to live forever,

I left you standing there with no explanation,

rushed quickly to the nearest bus station,

crying ,because I knew you wanted me that bad,

I was scared , terrified ,almost had a heart attack,

but you crashed you´re car , nothing was left of that

It had been two years since we last saw each other,

I ran into you in a bank , you told me I had changed ,

but no , I hadnt changed , I was still the same,

You were fancy , different and beautiful in some weird way,

and then we went out on a date , you took me to those fancy places,

I knew that It wasn´t you anymore, behind those faces

I know I can´t go back in time to fall in love,

but I do mean all the things I said above,

I just want to say i´m sorry , I did´nt realize it then ,

that you we´re perfect and better than all those men,

I know that I should forget all those things that remind me of you,

because you hurt me bad , and I fell again for you